How's it going?

How many people have come up to and asked you "How's it going?" Many I'm sure? It's just whenever we say that we always seem to respond the same way. Good. Thanks for you're life story, it was beautiful. It seems we don't tend to open up to each other and I wonder why? Is it because we don't trust one another? Is it because we don't want to worry others? Is it because we think we can cope on our own? I've always wondered why people keep to themselve. Me being the out-going person I am, am always happy to share my problems as well as listen to them. I guess being one of the only people on the other side of the fence, it's kinda hard to see especialy if our neighbors board up every inch of their fence....I just happen to be very curious and well I don't cross the fence, my neighbor comes to me after awhile and realizes that I mean no harm to their yard or house and soon we're inviting each other over for dinner alternating days! haha wonderful metephor don't you think? Well what brought this on is the fact that I have people ask me all the time "How's it going?" and with that I never reply "good" I always reply with something different everyay according to my mood. "I'm ok i suppose" "I'm horrible" "I've been better, but i've been worse" Lately its horrible. He's where I go to open up my side of the story like always. Story time!: Starters. It's a new year yes? And I told you about my friend who thought I was joking yes? Yes. Well She broke up with the guy I liked to give me a chance. He asked me out that day and I was so happy. We went out for 2 weeks, then he told me he was leaving at the end of the year for ohio. We just wanted to make the most of our time together. A couple of days later he tells me that he lied about liking me at first, but later he really did start to like me. That really hurt O.o. Someone tried to convince me he was cheating on me (Which he wasn't) and within that timespan someone created a nasty rumor about me, saying that I was going to break up with him, and that I had kissed someone that wasn't him. That went on then the next week it was like it never happend. We hung out and had a blast because we have fun just talking. He was also in freshmen guys choir. Perfect right? Well he started ignoring me, because he thought of breaking up with me but decided against it. Then he ignored me again because his friend died and he was getting suspended for something he didn't do. He appologized for being suspended because he was doing something stupid. He also appologized because his mom was taking him back to ohio the next week. Ouchie. We had been dating for a month and 2 weeks. He left and then decided to not contact me until the 3rd day of him being gone and then break up with me via text message. He didn't have the guts to call me. He's adjusting and that's what makes me happy. I cried a lot over that.....now I have a failing grade in world geography because I didn't turn in 1 map. Then I need to boost my geometry grade. I need to be elligible for Choir to go to contest because I know I'm a strong voice and great sight-reader. Anyway I've had many guys ask me out since they found out i was single, and I told them that I needed time to heal. It's been a week and I'm being yelled at for not having gotten over my ex within that span because it's apprently not at their pace. I'm losing guy friends over this? They weren't my friends to begin with i suppose....... It just hurts to lose a friend you know? *sigh* But enough about me....How's it going?

Total Disaster

Ah things havent been to good at school. Lots of homework and too many things to deal with. Public school is so different. Way more people which will include more problems. The friends I've made there don't seem to understand what peace and quiet is. They always ask me questions and continuously talk to me. I wonder if any of my old friends came to this school if they would do the same. My friends look to me for advice, help, and even permission for certain things. I'm basicaly a mother figure to them and its killing me because I already have stress of my own. To top it off they ask me some pretty unintelligent questions. In class they ask me how to do things without having read the directions. After they read them they still ask me how things are done. *sigh* I've made a bunch of friends, which means half of them don't get along with the other half because I have a very diverse personality that a diverse group of people all satisfy. Don't think I've forgotten about all of my old friends from WCS (You know who you are). I still try to stay in contact because they relieve my stress. To add on I didn't know that I could be pretty or cool or funny until i had 5 to 6 different guys ranging from freshmen to seniors ask me out. The sad thing is I don't like them. Plus i really don't need a boyfriend right now. It won't help. That is until I met this one guy at my school whom we simply call Ninja. Ive had a crus on him since school started. Well he had a girlfriend so i let him be happy and just settled for a friend. I just recently found out he was single as of a couple of days ago. I told a good friend of mine that I liked him. This morning I found out she started to date him right after 1st period. She thought I was joking about liking him. Why is it that stuff relationship wise for me never turns out right? Oh well. I can find someone else I hope :( On the other hand I have a lot of school work from pre ap classes. then more stress when I'm in AP classes next year. I have to worry about semester exams next week (I miss private school's schedual for that) And My project for pre ap english that i don't even think my partners are going to help with.......*sigh* on top of that this christmas was the first one where my parents were seperated. and I spent new years with just my dad and my brother never came home. I found him the next day and I was mad. Not a very good start to 2010.....But I vow to make the most of this year and to be a better person completely. That was my resolution. On a lighter note (just random info) My brother and I used to make fun of restless leg syndrome because we didn't think it was real....Ironic that I happen to have it and take medicine for it now ._. XD funny stuff man, funny stuff. Anyway I'm gonna wrap it up. May God bless your new year and may you have the best of luck.