My tale, Angelica's Fail

So yesterday my brother got his birthday present early. He got tickets to his favorite musical. He decided to take me and my aunt's friend. I was happy that he picked me, especialy since I loved the musical almost as much as he did. He said he was going to be in it one day, which I don't doubt. I observed the plotline for the hundreth time and found that it was more than what it was portrayed as. It was about friendship, trust, fights, how to stick together, Love. One of the main characters had died (I cried) and everyone started to fight because that character kept everyone together. i simply loved it! The actors/actresses were amazing! The emotion they displayed! The voices they had! My brother and I had goosebumps! When we got home a cake lay waiting for mike in the dinning room :) It was pretty cool (He's 21). The next day was school and of course everyone is talking about the swine flu. We can fight off the inffection because we have better treatment in America and better imune systems so people shouldn't worry. After school I went to Angelica's house so we could see the school play. We took pictures together and walked to a park seeing as how we're best friends. Angelica said that it didn't start until 7. We got there at 7:10.........IT STARTED AT 6!!!!!!! we came in near the end....So Angelica epicly FAILED. But we still had a great time and took great pictures :) Can't wait for D.C! Well I have to leave now so my mother can get on. Bye bye

How to Save a Life

No this blog has nothing to do with the famous How To Save A Life song by The Fray. However it is about what I found when I walked into my brothers room. My brother had called me right when I got home and he asked me to go into his room for a minute. I thought he had brought one of our friends over. I got knocked on his door and heard a peculiar sound....is that what I think it is? I walked in to find a small orange kitten crawling around on his bed meowing loudly and looking blindly for its mother. I did what every girl would've done at that moment "Awwwwwwww he's so cute!". I walked over to pet him. his claws were out but thank goodness he did not have his teeth yet. My brother looked at me with puppy dog eyes. He wanted ME to watch the kitten while he went to work. I was afraid to though. I was afraid that I might hurt the fragile little thing. That's when my grandmother walked in. We were afraid she would kill us for getting another kitten. (we had already raised at least 10 cats that now are the neighborhood cats) "Why do you have another cat here?!" She asked surprised. Mike explained that our aunt had a friend who found the little kitten in their car and gave it to them. They couldn't keep it. I was disgusted that someone just left the kitten there :( but my grandmother decided we could keep him. she even went to the pet store to buy him some formula and a bottle. He's a rascal he is. he keeps tring to climb out of his box :) He's so cute and I will possibly have a picture of him in my next blog :) anyway TTFN (Ta ta for now)

However puzzling life is, I'll always figure it out

Ahhh well yesterday put me in an amazing mood today :D But that kind of got ruined by some people in my class in English (No offense to them, I love them! They just weren't very cooperative.... Anyway, yesterday. One of the best days I shall ever have!

Here's the story going back 2 days to April 20th:

I was ridding in the car with my brother just listening to music, enjoying our day off from school. I told him about the movie 17 again....well how I felt after the movie anyway. I was crying after the movie. Happy tears. I was so moved. I didn't think it would hold that much or a hold over me. But anyway I was thinking. That movie gave me hope to find a guy that will love me like that guy in the movie. The first name that came to mind was Johnny. I've always had feelings for Johnny. wherever I went and he happend to be there, I got butterflies in my stomach each time. I knew I had this likeing to him. I couldn't let him go. I've never felt this strongly about a person. Well I spilled all of this in the car with my brother adding that I relly needed to tell Johnny how I felt, but I was afraid of his answer and the way he would react. The way it was in my head was I would tell him, then he's be weirded out by what I said and never talk to me again (worst case scanario) but Michael said this to me. "You can't keep living your life in fear. If you do you'll never be able to do anything" I thought about that and decided he was right. I was going to tell him tommorrow. I thanked my brother happily. That talk really helped.

April 21st:

I went to school of course and Learned things. I got home and realized that I had something to do. Of course I could only message Johnny on the internet to ask him to call me because I didn't have his number. I don't like to exchange true serious feelings over the internet.....that's just wrong >_<. I had to wait for him to get online. When he did I was going to chicken out. I kept thinking "What if he thinks I'm crazy? What if he doesn't feel the same way?" While I was thinking I got butterflies and decided to watch a video I had made. I clicked on a random one and listend to the music. as I was lsitening I recognized the song right away. The weird thing is......the chorus is the thing that made me break my doubts and send him a message. "I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have, And cannonball into the water. I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have. For You I will"-For You I Will (Confidence) by Teddy Geiger. I absolutely believed he was right! I was going to gather up all the courage I had and call him. I sent him the message. He called after about 5 minutes. I started to talk. "There hasn't been a day since summer where I haven't thought about you. I rewound the numerous moments in my mind and tried to firgure out why I could not stop thinking about you. Even when I was with my ex-boyfriend I couldn't stop thinking about you and it bugged me to no end.....So when spring break came around, I got time to think about my life personaly. I sat down and thought about you.....and I came to the conclusion that.....heh...this may sound stupid to you, but.....I am completely and utterly in love with you...." silence. He sat there and fianlly said "This isn't a joke right? You're not yanking my chain?". "Why would I joke about something like this?" I asked. "Awwwwww" He said as if it were cute. "That's amazing because I was just talking to my friend the other day about you. I told her you were the nicest girlfriend I ever had" He replied. I smiled ready to cry. I held back and listend to him talk. It was the greatest feeling in the world :). We then talked for hours about random subjects. It was weird but there wasn't a moment where the air wasn't filled with laughter. I was so happy that I could connect with him and make him laugh as well as him making me laugh. Too soon he had to leave and I hung up. I was content. I knew then that I could focus on my school work knowing what he thought. I sent him a message saying that I was glad I could talk about all of that. He told me the he was happy too and that we would see what would happen when he got back into Houston :). I was overjoyed. I was in such a good mood that I actually did my algebra homework. I'm going to be ready for the test, I'm working harder in school, and now I actually get more free time to work on my music. I'm so glad my brother pushed me to talk to him. I'm also glad I clicked on that video. Just an example of how random eents can lead up to the best thing you've ever had. Now I can say that I have figured myself out, until the next puzzle rises up from the depths of my subconcious :)

Pray for

My brother

My mother

Mrs. McKenzie Mrs. Wilcox, and Ms. McGowen

Meagan and the babies in Zambia

All of those 8th grders retaking the English test and taking the Algebra test

Johnny to have a safe trip back

The 8th graders going on the D.C trip

The students that are slacking because its the last 6 weeks

Me so that I can have more patience and better decision making skills

Coach Hawley's family and for him to have more faith :)

How Will I Possibly Make it Through the Days

Ahhh I must say this weekend stressed me to no end.....I cleared my schedual, meaning i cancled plans I had with my brother's friend, and my friends for a certain person. Well it turns out that he never did leave California because his dad wouldn't let him go :( I have so much to tell him! I was ready to pour my heart out in front of him. But he never showed :( To top that off, I angered my mom. Plus another boy says he likes me a lot but I don't see him like that and I'm hurting him just by being around him :( What am I to do? I pray and seek the comfort of others when I have troubles and my friends haven't let me down once.
On the bright side, I'm most likely going to Dobie for highschool :) Of course I'm going to miss My friends, Coach Hawley, Mr.P, Mr. Semanek, Mrs. Cindy Fletcher ect. but I would love to go to another school and meet new people.

You know what else? I always meet new people towards the end of the year.

By new I mean people I've never really talked to before. It's strange. There's a highschooler I talk to a lot because we both share a strong passion for music. It's really cool to meet someone who knows how you feel about a certain object. Ahhhh I'm tired and need to eat Bye Bye!

Pray for:

My brother

My mother

Meagan and the babies in Zambia

My cousin with her 3 month old baby :)

that woman attacked by the polar bears in Germany (even though it was pretty stupid)

Those devestated by the earthquake in Italy

For me and my problems :P

Coach Hawley, his family, and that he has more faith :)

My Hero: Coach Hawley

So I've been thinking yes? Something I do quite often. And I was thinking....who am I to look upon and think, "I want to be like them"......well recently I've been comming to a conclusion on that! I mean sure My brother was my hero but his displayment of attitude isn't always exactly what I like.
My teacher Coach Hawley has just recently lost his mother. She passed away before he could leave the state. He has been handling it well. I really admire that. Plus he still teaches his wonderful students :). I felt really bad though. I wanted to help some way. Well here's my way to help. He is OFFICIALY my Hero :) I plan to follow the same morals he has and to respect others just like he does.
This past week I also listend to a song over and over again. The song is very popular and is called Move Along by The All-American Rejects. "When all you've got to keep is strong move along move along like I know you do. And even when your hope is gone move along move along just to make it through" I know that's exactly what Coach Hawley was doing. I really made that connection. Now everytime I hear the song I think of him and smile knowing that I should keep moving forward because God is going to take care of me.
So I take this whole space just to say.....THANK YOU COACH HAWLEY! KEEP MOVING ALONG :)!

Prayer Request:

Pray for My friend Justin

Pray for Meagan and the babies she cares deeply for

Pray for those in Italy who have lost loved ones and others to the earthquake

Pray for My brother, Michael, who hasn't been the best lately

Pray for Mr. Semanek and his family.

Pray for all of the students who may slack off in the last 6 weeks (I loved Mr. White's Devo.)

Pray that I might have more patience, better moral standards and better decision making skills.

Pray for Coach Hawley and his family and that he has more faith

Keep moving along everyone :)