However puzzling life is, I'll always figure it out

Ahhh well yesterday put me in an amazing mood today :D But that kind of got ruined by some people in my class in English (No offense to them, I love them! They just weren't very cooperative.... Anyway, yesterday. One of the best days I shall ever have!

Here's the story going back 2 days to April 20th:

I was ridding in the car with my brother just listening to music, enjoying our day off from school. I told him about the movie 17 again....well how I felt after the movie anyway. I was crying after the movie. Happy tears. I was so moved. I didn't think it would hold that much or a hold over me. But anyway I was thinking. That movie gave me hope to find a guy that will love me like that guy in the movie. The first name that came to mind was Johnny. I've always had feelings for Johnny. wherever I went and he happend to be there, I got butterflies in my stomach each time. I knew I had this likeing to him. I couldn't let him go. I've never felt this strongly about a person. Well I spilled all of this in the car with my brother adding that I relly needed to tell Johnny how I felt, but I was afraid of his answer and the way he would react. The way it was in my head was I would tell him, then he's be weirded out by what I said and never talk to me again (worst case scanario) but Michael said this to me. "You can't keep living your life in fear. If you do you'll never be able to do anything" I thought about that and decided he was right. I was going to tell him tommorrow. I thanked my brother happily. That talk really helped.

April 21st:

I went to school of course and Learned things. I got home and realized that I had something to do. Of course I could only message Johnny on the internet to ask him to call me because I didn't have his number. I don't like to exchange true serious feelings over the internet.....that's just wrong >_<. I had to wait for him to get online. When he did I was going to chicken out. I kept thinking "What if he thinks I'm crazy? What if he doesn't feel the same way?" While I was thinking I got butterflies and decided to watch a video I had made. I clicked on a random one and listend to the music. as I was lsitening I recognized the song right away. The weird thing is......the chorus is the thing that made me break my doubts and send him a message. "I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have, And cannonball into the water. I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have. For You I will"-For You I Will (Confidence) by Teddy Geiger. I absolutely believed he was right! I was going to gather up all the courage I had and call him. I sent him the message. He called after about 5 minutes. I started to talk. "There hasn't been a day since summer where I haven't thought about you. I rewound the numerous moments in my mind and tried to firgure out why I could not stop thinking about you. Even when I was with my ex-boyfriend I couldn't stop thinking about you and it bugged me to no end.....So when spring break came around, I got time to think about my life personaly. I sat down and thought about you.....and I came to the conclusion that.....heh...this may sound stupid to you, but.....I am completely and utterly in love with you...." silence. He sat there and fianlly said "This isn't a joke right? You're not yanking my chain?". "Why would I joke about something like this?" I asked. "Awwwwww" He said as if it were cute. "That's amazing because I was just talking to my friend the other day about you. I told her you were the nicest girlfriend I ever had" He replied. I smiled ready to cry. I held back and listend to him talk. It was the greatest feeling in the world :). We then talked for hours about random subjects. It was weird but there wasn't a moment where the air wasn't filled with laughter. I was so happy that I could connect with him and make him laugh as well as him making me laugh. Too soon he had to leave and I hung up. I was content. I knew then that I could focus on my school work knowing what he thought. I sent him a message saying that I was glad I could talk about all of that. He told me the he was happy too and that we would see what would happen when he got back into Houston :). I was overjoyed. I was in such a good mood that I actually did my algebra homework. I'm going to be ready for the test, I'm working harder in school, and now I actually get more free time to work on my music. I'm so glad my brother pushed me to talk to him. I'm also glad I clicked on that video. Just an example of how random eents can lead up to the best thing you've ever had. Now I can say that I have figured myself out, until the next puzzle rises up from the depths of my subconcious :)

Pray for

My brother

My mother

Mrs. McKenzie Mrs. Wilcox, and Ms. McGowen

Meagan and the babies in Zambia

All of those 8th grders retaking the English test and taking the Algebra test

Johnny to have a safe trip back

The 8th graders going on the D.C trip

The students that are slacking because its the last 6 weeks

Me so that I can have more patience and better decision making skills

Coach Hawley's family and for him to have more faith :)