I Should Not Be Allowed To Think

I was in my usual mood this morning. Grouchy and tired. Then I started to listen to my music. Automatic memory activator ON! i started to think about a lot of things. Then I got to the song My December by Linkin Park. "Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed" is one of the lines. I remember when my last boyfriend broke up with me (A month ago right before valentines day and my HSPVA auditon). I was crushed and felt like it was my fault. He said he broke up with me because he didn't feel anything. That might've been because he was grounded from me and we never got to see each other and whenever he got an opertunity to see me he never took it. I have had so much trouble with relationships. What am I missing? What am I doing wrong? My Ex and I had been together for almost 7 months and thanks to the break up, it's going to take me a while to get into another relationship. Everytime I even get close to another guy romanticaly, I think of my Ex. It still hurts but time heals all wounds right? Now that I've said most of my problems I just want to notice others. I wish I could help people in diferent cities, states, countries, Continants! I want to help all of those in need, like those in Africa. Or just homeless people on our streets! I wish we still did the clothing and food drive :( We collected a lot and helpped a lot of people. That's why Im going to raise as much I can for Honduras! :) And it's not only those kids but kids in our society who have major depression and need someone there for them! I give great advice and put myself in their shoes, and I really want to be a therapist when I grow up to help them. (I'll be the first singer/actress/writer/therapist). Love makes the world go round :) start with one person at a time. Life's not about waiting for the storm cloud to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain (My quote :)) "And I'd give it all away. Just to have somewhere to go to. GIve it all away. To have someone to come home to" -Linkin Park (special thanks to Coach Hawly for helping all of his students and being encouraging and praying for everyone! Plus I always learn something in his class and always feel better after that class)